|Seth Haskell - Cat 4 racer, racing cross in one of the Verge Series races back in December 2011|
My good friend Seth Haskell has his own twist on the "spandex / lycra theory" Seth races for Team "KIT".
I change to my kit and helmet as a monk would as he prepares for his meditation with robe and mala beads. I strip away all the masks i wear throughout the day, removing those pieces that are not part of what radiates as truth to my being, and cover myself in function rather than fashion. I look in the mirror, a reflection of truth stares back at me, my opportunities clearly defined, to be imminently addressed. I ride to better myself, not only physically, but spiritually.
I am one with myself in a pace line, interwoven and connected to all those around me, suffering along behind those who know how to suffer on levels beyond my current comprehension, those who i would consider mini Buddhas of the Dharma of cycling. This is my Sangha..my spiritual community.
At once I find myself present only in the moment, as I struggle to overcome the burning in my legs, to control my breath, and to face the a simple fear of failure. Can I do this? Can I push harder? Why do I do this. What is it for? There is no answer that comes to mind, no explanation of why, but as I reach the front of the pack for my turn, my pull, the world narrows, and it all makes sense. Nothing needs an explanation for the next 60 seconds. I am on front, and I find the perfect Zen moment.
I pull left and sit up, and watch the next in line strive for their moment.
I do this repeatedly until my body refuses to respond, a mini battle between my will and physical self, until the inevitable sets in. I watch as the group rides way, continuing their quest. I will never let my own pride or disappointment stand in he way of continuing on my own quest. I will return again, but for now, my Zen moment has passed, and I am set to return to the world, and I am better equiped to deal with the daily rigors of life.
Its more than a ride. It always has been, it always will be.